The Big in the Small (edited version)

When you left, I never quite understood why.
The winds picked up and clouds filled the sky.
I just wouldn’t understand, or I just couldn’t see,
Why fortune happened upon the fortunate and not upon me.
But now I have been doused with a thought or two,
That the one who gives me hope is only you,

You always found the big in the small.
When I threw you out, you still loved me, and I saw
It was by your thread of love that you sowed my sore,
And I am sure it is only you I want to live for.

I said, I want to fly under the shielding of your wing,
But day to day I run so far from your fathering,
I see myself going up the same old paths; they are pretty steep,
And I am so lonely here on this course I cry before I sleep.
Out on my own, I twiddle away; it is getting old.
I want to return to the strong hand that I used to hold.

You always found the big in the small.
When I threw you out, you still loved me, and I saw
It was by your thread of love that you sowed my sore,
And I am sure it is only you I want to live for.

I am finally planted in the hollow of your hand,
I found a girl that knows you and I’m her man,
I raised three kids and they all have families of their own,
It is scary how straight a crooked man like me has flown,
I see you under the lintel with your open arms and I smile
As my nephews carry me down the pew skirted aisle.