It is the Good Life

It is the Good Life
when you’re here,
Close by me.
When my life looks like
what my cat coughed up
on the carpet this morning,
You tell me I inspire you
I can’t see it,
Or maybe just won’t.
Girl, I wish everyone had one of you.
We wouldn’t need faith
to move a mountain,
We would have enough to
move two.
I am a supernova
Among a desert of nebular stardust
When you smile
Or I hear your laugh,
Don’t loose them because
Some lonely soul like me
might be lost at sea
And need an echo or an image
of Daddy to get through the night,
The silent night.
Only cry to ease the pain
Because you have a
bright blur that eclipses the sun.
Always think opportunity
Imagine what you can do.
You will make it through,
And change the world I know
Because you have
changed me.
I have faith in you because
you have faith in Him.
It is selfish for me
to love you because I
want something.
So I will love you
by giving me.

I Don’t Want to Argue

I want to be a challenged, but I don’t want to argue.
Tell me I’m wrong, and I’ll send you an electronic diatribe.
Challenge me with a new way of thinking.
It would be hard to change after 17 years though.
Don’t make fun of my ways with sarcastic comments.
Are you trying to make me mad!
Don’t restate someone else’s words into ours,
Are you trying to start a fight?
Cut your tongue out if needed.
Slice the thing before it forks.
I still love you, but hate your actions.
I beg you to stop.
You are craving scandal like a news anchor.
Anchor yourself to a little self-control, please.
Don’t excuse your actions as a Newtonian opposite and equal re-action.
You hold the red button of your noggin. You shouldn’t let others push it.

Test

What is the reason for finishing first the test?
Is the one who finishes first the best?
Looking around and around
When I hear the pencil-drop sound.
There’s a sense of individuality I achieve
When I am the last to re-read
Lamenting I have nothing more to say
Am I toiling for more than just an "A?"
Or Is it my pride to be the last?
Thinking completeness not just fast.

A Broom or a Car?

I’d take a broom over a car any day.
I imagine taking care of the homestead,
I am reconsidering the values of my ancestors
That somehow got along without interstates or malls.
Sure I buy clothes but only at half price.
Anyway, I hate movie theaters.
Not sure but it has something to do with over priced popcorn, video games, and a movie
A movie that I pretty much don’t like
Like the rock stuck on the bottom of my shoe.
I try to kick it off or roll the pebble off onto the linoleum.

Stretched Like Silly Putty

I am stretched like silly putty over an over-sized thumb.
I try to congeal into different types of jello jiglers
So I can fit pre-made molds
That were designed in elementary school,
But hadn’t gone into production until junior high.
Do I become a shepherd or a scout?
Which is greater:
Teaching the people walking forward
to run
Or
Teaching the people walking backward
to stop?

I Will Survive

The greatest thing I have is the knowledge of survival.
I will live on no matter my problems.
He didn’t die for nothing.
I will not die from this pain, from this stress,
I will conquer.
I will survive the test.

Lead me out into the fray
The fray of action because
I can’t stand satisfaction today.
I am too lost to lose anything
And I want to lose it all just to regain it and be a
Witness and testimony to the Hope I’ve found.
On a crowded street corner in LA
My spirit if slain will multiply like influenza
I will survive. Forget the odds today
They lost their worth at 0 AD.
I will conquer but not in my name.

Lock me up because I already have the key,
The will to live,
A mission to live,
A goal to see finished.

Thoughts on Worship

So I state at the wall not wanting to focus on a human eye afraid of the feelings guilty for visiting your house and not complimenting you and is not how I want to feel.
It depends on the disposition about who is also over at your house and what I was doing before I stopped by to say hi and I can’t stand it.
Lowly faces staring at the walls cause me to mourn not just over others but how can I know that they’re not enjoying it. I can’t judge.
It is like our one parishioner said I wanted it quiet and wanted to let the organ play. He feels God then invading the pews and belfry.
I want to hear battle cries against my attitude of ignoring you. But are you really there or are you being forced upon my mind and in my ears by the people in charge and by peer pressure? Is it really you I hear calling me? I hope it is, because I am jumping in without a life preserver.

The Greatest Gift

Got a girl in the city,
But she’s not mine; just thinks so.
I live for the weekend–to escape
The trap I’ve made.
Stayed at grandma’s cottage in the country
And fathered a child by an old friend.
Didn’t mean to, but I need to face the truth:
There’s no way back.

Today, I saw the greatest gift
I could ever have; I hope he
Decides not to follow me and my life;
On the gravel of the trail of mistakes
My feet have so badly bled.

Tell me he’s not a mistake, like me.
Someone just told me I was wrong.
Wrong to bring him here into my arms.
Who are they to tell me
My greatest gift and my reason to live
Was not meant to be!
I will never believe them or anything they say!

Daddyfriend

Your heart had a hole I thought I could fix.
Your Dad left when you were only six.
Sends cash but no Christmas card or birthday gift.
After the ball game I offered you a lift,
We talked about everything and I could easily see
You are worth more than you thought you could be.

I’m here for you
When you need a friend,
Call me on the phone,
I can fill the void in your life. . . .

Well, we started so great,
We rode around town till was late,
I loved to see you happy,
It made me happy,
Some said I was too old.
But just think how I’ve made you whole.

I’m here for you,
Come visit me anytime you want
That’s more than anyone else can say.
You need a dad, but you need me, I’m more.
I will feel the void in your life. . . .

I bought an apartment, and you moved in.
I loved to come home to your silly grin,
I’d hold you close until all the sadness was gone.
We snuggled up close and carried on.
I listened to you and you listened to what I said.
I was needed and your needs were fed.

Because I’m here for you,
I will see you through thick and thin,
We’ll work it out and comfort each other,
In the midst of the storm,
I am filling the void in you life. . . .

You started hanging around a guy at school,
I said you shouldn’t. You called me a half mule.
Your friends asked me what I thought,
He thinks I’m controlling you. Well, I’m not.
I’m just protecting you from other guys
Who would take advantage of your crystal blue eyes.

Look how far we have come.
Look at the odds we have overcome,
I’m good for you and you’re good for me.
What else could there be?

I’m feeling so lonely; last night we fought,
Even when you’re here, it’s like you’re not.
And I demand this to stop.
This cross guy is a big flop.
You’ve changed since you met this man of peace,
The time you spend meditating is on an increase.

You’ve fallen in love with not this guy,
But the man he follows.
It’s built a chasm between us,
I feel wronged.

I yelled the day your things were packed.
I said you wouldn’t leave me; it’s only an act.
I thought if you just looked back, you’d stay.
But I was wrong, and you moved away.

So now you are all loved.
I can see you shine.
And I can’t fill the void.
Maybe I never could.
I wish you well,
But I wish you were still mine.

Hush

Hush little baby. Don’t say a word,
Daddy gonna buy you a heaven to rest in.
There will be pillows of plush.
It will be quiet, but you won’t be lonely.
You’ll be as snug as a bug,
And nothing will itch,
And no one will call you a bitch.